All things being equal

Its been a blustery past few weeks at the offfice. Not in the usual work load ... customer deescalation and hand holding... But in the "winds of change" banging at the shutters kind of way .

Im sure I mentioned the position I applied for up stairs. I interviewed for it and was quite confudent that I was a pretty solid canidate. I was excluded pretty quickly. But now, knowing who one of my competitors was, Im in agreement with that decision. And I hope the young soon to be father lands the role. Its perfect for him and when I heard about his applying, I giggled in glee.

Anyway, while I was waiting for my interview to happen, a job came open on the training team. I mentioned it to my mom and she squeeled knowing that id be a great fit for any position in training. But I was excited at the thought of new possibilities and being out of the basement and so I Iet the opertunity lie. In the meantime, however, more than a handful of snr staff and quite a few peers approached me and suggested I apply. Id quickly clarify that I was waiting to hear about the other position . When it didnt pan out, the onslaught of nudges began again. My own boss, scooting by, leading the charge.

And yet I resisted. I did not apply and the mood shifted. A frosty cold chill began to settle between myself and these "little birdies" as some identified themselves by. These individual have come to know something of my demeaner and drive and see me as a nutural fit for the role. The could not for the life of them understand my inaction.

I, of course, could not articulate the truth.

But something had to give and clarity needed to be given so I set about writting my boss a letter. I explained that I was not looking for a spring board to propel me up... the the position of trainer should be a destination... that the huge cuts and losses that have occured in my 1.5 years there dont signifiy that the larger company appreciates its most valuable employees. I explained why the trainers were important and I spoke highly of the department head. And I ended with a note about needing my own office and compensation worthy of my time and enegy. My boss thanked me and there has been nothing more about it... outside of the job posting being pulled.

The roomate... the on again off again romance seems to finally have come to a serious end. Whiskey dick will do it. And authorization for her to move to arizona finally came through. The details are being worked out. But she will be outta here end of October. Having had her around has made me realize how happy I am in my own little bubble.

Anyway, equinox has arrived following a slightly .... ever so slightly... viaible lunar eclipse. Why did I stay up to see that? It was not much of a spectacle. But the air was crisp and the sky was crystal clear. It really was a lovely evening under the stars despite the threat of mutant eee carrying mosquitoes.

I really wish allergies were not so dabilitating at the moment. This is such a beautiful perfect time to be outside. And here I am stuck inside as much as possible to minimize the fatique, asthma and burning watering eyes. So from my window I watch.

Oh...The roommate asked me to look into astro cartography and gave me her data. Looks like I have something new to learn.

Im super looking forward to trying out the sensory deprivation tank with my old high school friend for my birthday.